Get Lost la

So far I havent heard a single negative comment about OIP. Everyones been so high about it which undeniably makes me envious. Well I onli have myself to blame. But still Im sincerely glad for everyone who went and enjoyed it. Almost everyone.

Its really vexing. Wednesdays training felt so good and todays was disasteriffic. Why couldnt you just stay there and dont come back? You come back, you have no respect for me at all and you beat the shit out of me. Just basic respect, since Im not all big and mighty, yet theres none. Disgusting.

Well in the evening there was no rciy but was replaced by a mass. This Father Larry something from the philippines came down and gave the liturgy. He was really very engaging. Used a lot of humour, sometimes irrelevant, but definitely got his point across. Hes flying back to the philippines tomorrow. Wish we had such a priest.

Oddly enough, just going there makes me feel somewhat better. Im really not holly molly at all, especially since I cant rewire my stiffly rational brain to believe the unbelievable. But still, its a great relief, from everything and anything. In the very least, its a healthy relief rather than excessive gaming or other... unhealthy online activites.

And I realised that I was quite a whiny bitch about the whole effort and reward thingy. Though yeah, it is still true, but there are many others like me or worse than me. Samuel puts in tremendous effort in his studies which I failed terribly to realise but he isnt getting the result hes supposed to. Kwan yi trains a lot for table tennis too and plays in his own time but he too didnt make the team. So yeah, Im not rewarded, but others are not too, even more unjustified-ly than me. So I will try my best to quite whining and just do my best, in everything.

Well hope tomorrows a better day. Everydays a new day.. Im sticking to it.